--=Ana's Cyber Retreat=-

Fall semester is finally coming to an end. I only have two more days left before I can say that I finished taking my first English class. I already enrolled for my second English class, which is the pre-requisite in order for me to get in the medical field of study. I actually still have to qualify...LOL! It's going to be quite a challenge. The first thing I must take is biology, and then psychology. So I'll see if I fit in the medical field. I am still weighing my options. I don't want to jump in too fast because I may not like it in the medical field. I want to keep an open mind to other field of studies. I like fashion and designing. If to say being an engineer guarantees a steady job, I would love to be a designer. However, since I am passionate about helping others, perhaps being a nurse is suitable for me. I would do well being a nurse because I am always up for assisting those in need. People who could use some assistance. Hmmm...according to my astrology signs, whatever it is that I decide to do is fine, because I will generally do well in everything I wish to do. Now that's nice to know...LOL!

I miss having a job but I must wait until I find out if I actually have the time to work. If studying the highest level of English>for academic purposes] is not so hard, then I would absolutely want to get a job. I want to make extra money. It was fun while it lasted when I was able to make extra money. Ah...the non-stop shopping...LOL!
By the way, I am starting to sell the good stuff I bought some time ago. I hope they sell, so I can keep selling. I will need to save the money this time. Well, that is unless I find a way to buy and sell for profits which might just happen if I find a connection. I need someone who makes things and then I can buy them wholesale and sell them for profits. That sounds like a good business stand point.
As for my school, I will be going to school this September 22nd. I actually thought I had to go so soon like on August 22nd because I initially enrolled to take the lower level of English for I was left out (I did not want to be on the waitlist). However, later on I found a new schedule for the level of English I qualified to take and was able to drop my class to register for another. Whew! That was nice. So I am so glad it worked out fine. Now I still have almost a month to study hard and make it in school...LOL! I hope!
And hey! I also had a new hair-cut! I had my long hair cut off. Now my hair is as short as when I was 15...LOL! I planned to have it cut even shorter but it didn't happen like I thought it would. It will grow back and that is when I get another hair cut. I hope to have a long hair by next year. No more short hair after this. Ok, this is all for now. C-yah!

I was going to start a new blog but I realized that I could not grab the molah opss, so I came back here. I do not want to wait months to be able to monetize my blog, which is why I am keeping my old blog. Now I can start blogging again. I grabbed another blog template but it is for temporary use. I am planning to surf the web for premium blog templates. Having a decent looking blog is important to me, so I will try to see if I can purchase a template. I want a template made just for me-if possible. I think I can afford it now anyway...LOL. If I can spend money on my shopping why not on my blog, right? It is not that much after all. If a custom-made template is beyond my means then a ready-made will do. I have to be practical. Ok this is all for now. I am going to tag a photo of my old template here just to remind you it is still my old blog you are visiting...LOL!

Hello and welcome to all! Well, here I am back to blogging. I was in hiatus for quite some time. Indeed for almost a year...LOL! My new hobby occupied me so much that I hardly had any time to share my thoughts in writing. I chatted with my family and friends instead. As for the hobby I am talking about; it was a WarCraft realistic video game. I played it with my sisters (brothers as well for a short time) and brother in laws (one of them is a serious gamer). Ah, that is how I got into the game...LOL! We all had a blast. Hmmm...I sound like I am done with it, but no, not just yet...LOL. I still visit my virtual world every once in a while when I get bored. I easily get bored you know. Aside from the game I do enjoy many other fun activities like blogging, photography, and digital-scrapbooking. And oh, let's not forget shopping-it is what gets me the most; I mean enjoy the most [wink]. I hate to admit it but I am a big time shopaholic. I have always enjoyed shopping ever since I learned how to spend money and earned it, of course...LOL! Anyway let me update you with what had happened over the past months that I didn't get to share. My grandmother (mother side of the family) passed away and I am so sorry for not being able to help her as much I wished I could. I loved her dearly and will miss her so. Those whom my family lost will always be missed so much. I wish I was able to see them before they died. Hay[sigh], buhay talaga oo. As for my uncle who was murdered, I am still in the process of helping him find justice that he richly deserved. Pride should not cost someone's life. I am slowly meeting my goals and helping my uncle is one of them. So, it is one goal at a time for me. "Things will only happen if you make them happen"-according to JFK. By the way, I am finally working...yahooh! I am so glad. I am part of the workforce now. It sure makes life much easier and ah...certainly comfortable. It is unskilled but it will do for the time being while I work on going back to school. Everything is in a slowly but surely process for me, which is not so bad considering that I will still get there someday...aha-ha! Ambisyosa kasi ako eh kaya talagang mataas ang mga pangarap ko...[blush]. Excuse me for my native tongue. Ok, I think this is all for now. See you soon. Muah...!!!

I have been in hiatus for a while and I apologize to those of you who became my avid readers. I am sure that I disappointed you. Well, I would say...especially those of you who think so highly of me...LOL! I am just being sarcastic really and that is to my nemesis here as I know they follow my every step hoping I'll crack and they can start belittling me. To tell you the truth, I do appreciate my experience being among the many blog dwellers here, because I learned a lot. There are those who pretend they are your friends but deep inside they are really not. I am now aware of them and learned their tricks as well...LOL! Oh, I can only laugh at them actually for even when they open their filthy mouths they still end up swallowing their own words. They don't know what they are talking about other than what they can speculate about me and my life. They are a bunch of phonies and, cowards because the only way for them to share their voices is by hiding under anonymous names...blah! They must make it a habit to watch other people instead of paying attention to what they do and see the best in people. They think they are above everybody else, etc. that they start telling people how to operate online. What a joke! They obviously have a problem and we are talking about mentally...LOL. Yeah, talk about being impaired...ahahah! Anyway, enough of my murmuring here, let me get off for now. I need to catch my siblings in a game room. I am having so much fun playing with them. Whoa! It's a blast!

Life has been hectic for me since I am going out a bit now. What I mean is that I am socializing for a change, which I get to hang out with my friends every once in a while. I like it as it is actually so much fun. I don't worry about the gossips because that is not important to me. What I basically care about is that I have fun and I am enjoying myself each time I am with my friends. It will certainly keep me young rather than being in the house all this time and grow old before my time. I was depressed so many times that it affected my health and I think mentally since there are times that I forget too easily. My lifestyle changed and I am glad that there are Pinays in my area here, finally, who are able to be around me without discrimination. I put up with discrimination here for a while as some of the Pinays I met here seemed to be afraid of me-if I have to say, intimidated since they avoid me and commented that I dress too sexy...LOL. Well, they haven't seen anything yet with my new friends...LOL! They don't know what sexy is until they see my friends...LOL! I guess I belong to a more provocative group of women where we can get dress as we please without someone making a fuss about it for being too sexy, etc. It's time to live it up and get out of the closet for life is too short to worry about what others may think. I know I couldn't care less anymore and I made it a point that I will have fun while I am here. That is what life is all about for me. Live the way I please as long as it is not hurting anyone. My friends rock!

Blogging, which is no longer helping me earn the amount of money I want for my monthly income. Blogging became a part time job for me, but since it is slow, I want to try it, again, with applying for a job close to home. I convinced my husband, at last. After all, I only need a part time job to supplement my wants and needs. I'll be a part time mommy, worker, and yep...blogger, too, of course! I will be job hunting soon since I really want to be mobile. Well, I won't be bothering my husband then, to take me somewhere for a ride. I don’t want to be dependent on my husband that in case something happens to him I am as good as disabled. I could also use some more money…especially now that I am beginning to socialize. I can hang out with friends sometimes, only I hate to have to always rely on them for transportation that I can only tag along. As for my husband, he is not really a social person anymore; he doesn’t like to be out mingling with other people at his age. So, he’s sticking to being retired and that is it for him. While on the other hand, I am just the opposite who likes to party! Ever since I was a young girl, I have always been fun-loving. It used to get on my mother’s nerves because I couldn’t stay put, I either go out to watch a movie, take a stroll in the town, hang out with friends, or, go swimming, fishing any time of day…LOL! I even opted to stay in the house located in a small town/village all alone just because I wanted to be where the fun is. I guess that makes me a city girl…I enjoy living in the city. I may be a bit of a loner but I prefer city living to a country with peace and quiet living. I kinda had enough of that with our farm back home. I pretty much stayed with mah granny anyway at the village (I was her restaurant buddy) and lived in the city later in my teenage years-I loved it. I just find it more convenient and fun to be living somewhere where we have access to almost everything. That is what we have in our place right now as stores are only walking distance away from us. In fact, my children and I walk to the store or to the park to play or go swimming during the summer, which is great for our exercise. I also ride my bike whenever I feel like hanging out at a particular store just looking around shopping, I like to shop alone some of the time so I can get a good look at the sale. I am a very careful shopper as hardly anything gets by me...LOL! It drives my husband crazy because I take too long. Okay till here for now. Kind regards to everybody out there. My blabber mouth is starting again…LOL!

At last, I have a fellow pinay friend here who lives so close to me and that I am can hang out with whenever time permits. Recently, I tagged along with her and her husband to meet with other pinays being invited to Lanie P.'s Easter party, and finally, I was able to met Lanie P. as well. For years and years I have never really socialized and when I tried; some of the pinays that I met in my area let me down. Now I am beginning to enjoy my social life, again. I love it because it is fun. I just wish I can drive and have a car of my own. That will certainly take me to save money and may have to wait a long time for it to happen since I don't have a job. I talked to my husband about working but he asked me to stay home for our children for now. He can't handle our little one and furthermore it is better that I am here for our children while they are so young. I'll just use my extra time to go back to school instead and hopefully someday my life will change for the way I wish it to. Anyway, let me share a couple of pictures here to give you a glimpse. I put up all the pictures at my Friendster page and if you are not on my list, you didn't see them. Having friends makes life's journey so much more exciting and attending a get-together party every once in a while is really good for the soul.

Here we are; in the white top is Fresh (my new friend) and, of course, me in the yellow top, and in the other picture wearing a tube outfit is Lanie P. (whom I acquainted for years, online).
P.S. Thanks so much to Fresh and her husband for letting me tag along and to Lanie and family for hosting the first fun party I've ever attended, here. I had lots of fun mingling and chit-chatting with some of the friendly pinays there...wow!

I surprised myself with how neat my blog looks now. I mean it is not that well decorated but I love it. It is simple yet business like; I mean professional looking. I did not want to replace my template after working hard on how to tweak it to my liking but looking at my blog now, I am glad I did. I am especially happy when I can make money while I sleep with Google AdSense and Affiliate Programs...whew! I was actually prompted to replace my template here for better navigation. I received a feedback saying that my posts did not appear at the top where they should be but at the bottom of the page. So, I had to make the necessary changes because I want to be productive here...;). Plus, I also had trouble with my FeedJIT live traffic feed widget here overlapping my posts anyway. Now I am satisfied with my new template. I just hope I won't hear any more problems. Okay, this is all for now. I feel groggy because you see, I have not slept a wink last night and I was only able to sleep a couple of hours today. I have got to exercise, so I can get some sleep. I guess I couldn't sleep last night because I was too anxious to finish editing my blog here. It's not finish just yet, and I am thinking of redoing my work here as soon as I have enough rest. I am a bit of a perfectionist and I have got to have it the way I want it. I really just need to re-upload the template codes. That is all.

First off, I transferred my favorite blog template here. It's simple yet modern and I like the design. I think I will keep my new template here, at least for a while. Anyway, I actually spent some time just editing my blog and categorizing my posts. I found it such a hassle since I posted almost 800 posts already. What a headache and it took me to stay up late to get most of my posts sorted out. I am finally done though... Whew! The categories are not exactly very well thought out, but I think they'll have to do because I am not willing to redo my work. Well, not unless I get bored again:). I had to think small and simple to make my work easier for me. I am making my blogs as simple as possible. By the way, I should not waste my time talking about nonsense here. I'll have to find something better to write about. I have to consider my fans, too, you know; este the audience pala...LOL.
Oh...yeah, another thing. I am also in the process of editing my posts for countless grammatical errors and wrong abbreviations-not to mention missing words. Goodness, my English needs a lot of work! I could not believe how silly I sound with all the LOL I used. So, while I was doing my corrections I realized that I really need to take ESL. My English skill is really poor and my vocabulary is too limited. I will have to take time to learn English. Speaking and writing English correctly is important to me, especially when I am a freelance blogger. I want to be able to speak English fluently and write correctly-it is actually part of my goals. Now since I learned my common writing mistakes I am trying hard not to over abbreviate my sentences and double my phrases that mean the same. I heard it pays to go to school and get a good education. I wish I can be a nurse or an engineer someday. That is so far just a wish. Perhaps I am only dreaming. It seems impossible because it costs a lot of money-thousands! I dream big don't I.

This blog may have to be left inactive one of these days because I am just not getting anywhere here. I am not sure what to do yet, but I am running out of topics to share. Right now, I just want to make a quick update, so I have a post here at least once a week. Okay, until here for now. Kind regards everybody! I know some of you only like to take a peek here. Thanks for your interest anyway. It is entertaining for me to know you care...[wink]. Now don't you stop checking up on me here, so I have company, eh?

Hi everybody, how's life? Wow, it will be Halloween soon. I will have to start digging the closet for some scary outfit to wear. Well, maybe not. I will need to actually find a Halloween outfit that I can wear, or perhaps I should wear what I wore last year, since we lost the pictures we took. It's too bad because I didn't even retrieve the ones I wanted. No more jumping to conclusion again for sure (why is that, because I didn't realize what I was doing and reformatted our computer in the process). We usually learn from experience. Only some people don't seem to get it and repeat their mistakes...LOL. They got burned once and they want to get burned again. I guess since life is all about taking chances; we all have problems. How else would we know unless we try, and that is exactly what I thought when I made the decision about getting married early in life...LOL. Now I know though, but yeah, it is kinda forever that you will be grounded once you are married. That is because when you have children you need to stay put especially if you don't have a lot of money, like me I supposed. So, that is just with me anyway eh.
Okay enough of this random blabbering. I got lost for a while there as I initially started talking about Halloween. My plan is to find outfits for the three of us; Tiana, Hannah, and me. We will be trick or treating this Halloween and Tiana is very excited. So, here, I will have to think about what we want to be this year. Tiana doesn't really know what she wants to be, so I will help her out. As for my husband; he doesn't bother participating since he is not into it. But it is a good thing that he takes us trick or treating; otherwise we would only be home bound as if not already always. I am immobile, so you can imagine how boring it is for me. I should get used to the idea by now since it is almost 10 years that I have not been able to learn how to drive...LOL. Moreover, I haven't done anything like that at home, so why should it be different. What is hindering me is not being able to save a lot of money really, I have got to stop spending my molah to make things happen I tell you. Indeed that is what I intend to do next, hopefully.

Hi everyone, how's everything at your end? As for what's new at my end. Well, the same as usual. We stay home most of the time, I get bored often and yes, I am always online doing something that can occupy my idle mind...LOL. But really, I have been trying to come up with a new look here and I changed my template so many times already and finally I found one that suits my taste. I mean my style and blog, I think my new look now is neat. I wish it won't get screwed up again so I won't have to scan the web for more decent blog templates for my blog. I have had enough for now. I was surfing the net endlessly for a while and hopefully I don't need to do it so soon.
Anyway, I want to share with you what I did when I felt like digi-scrapping.
You see, I made a new layout all on my own from scratch. It's fall, so I thought I'd make an autumn layout with our baby girl's recent photo on it. I actually want to offer a digital scrap kit for those who could use my work. I am not a pro and I am just having fun sometimes playing with my PSP. That is why I am able to make my digi-scrap kits. But hey, I take pride in what I can do being a beginner. Now, I may just share a kit when I have time to gather all my elements. It will be my autumn kit. I share my kits on my other blog which is at the "Memoirs of a Filipina". Okay, see you there eh!

Goodness, gracious!!! I thought I can keep the blogs I intended to keep, but now I can't. Well, I can't easily give up just because triple P is updating its system to only keep quality blogs. My Random Matters Blog can no longer be used there...eeek! It does not meet the triple P's standards for overall quality. Now which blog is next? I hope not this one because I consider this blog to be quite a quality one with more traffic than any of my other blogs. Anyway, let's see when how many blogs I have left at the triple P when this "blog assessment" is all over...LOL.
It might be time for me to get off my pad and start hustling soon. Oh, I wish it is easy to find a job here, but so far I am not going anywhere. I will have to keep trying and try harder. Okay this is all for now. For all I know I may not be blogging here anymore either without the triple P since it is my main source for opps. This blog is my top blog, so hopefully it won't be out. It must be the traffic count that matters now and frequency of posts. I have not been updating some of my blogs as often as I used to, and the posts are not very long and interesting either, so that must be it. I'll take whatever is for me and be happy with it; at least I am earning some money.

Happy weekend everyone! This is our daughter's first weekend from school, and I am glad the weather is good today. Anyway, I am thinking about getting a haircut and this time I want my hair to be shorter than I ever had it cut before. Sometimes it is better to have a new haircut and hairstyle for a change of phase. So I am not going to have my hair just be trimmed. If I think that I look okay with my new haircut I might share a picture. If not. I will only share our daughter's picture because I gave her a bob cut. My husband had to argue with me about it because it makes her look like a boy. Not to me! Well, at least his son likes Tiana's haircut, and think she looks very cute with it as a bob cut is really more for little girls. It is not time for her to look like a little lady yet...LOL. Okay, this is all for now. Enjoy your weekend!

Speaking English as a second language is not easy, not with me anyway. It is not that easy especially when I only have a high school level education. I do hope though that someday I can go back to school. Maybe if I save enough money I can, so I have got to save money. I need to limit my spending and shopping especially now that I have too many bills to pay. So far I am able to refrain from shopping many times a month as I used to. This is helping me meet all my extra expenses. I am managing my money just right and I don't run short unless I get some crazy ideas in my head. As for the ESL issue; I am not so bad anymore. I check my grammar to see about how I am doing. My grammars are improving as I can see according to my grammar checker. I am glad that I am learning more and more every day. I think going to Macomb Community College for the ESL program embedded in the computer there actually helped. Well, a little in means of knowing how to properly abbreviate a sentence. I learn as I go along, it is somewhat self-taught, you know. Thank goodness there is software that can recognize grammatical errors.

No job for me until now. I applied for a job to a few places so far but never received a call. So I guess I am going to be just home bound for a while. What makes it difficult is the fact that I am lacking the educational background and the ability to drive, or even have my own car. I don't really like working somewhere unless I have my own car and able to go places all on my own. Relying on someone for transportation is no good. However, if I ever get a job I would have to do what I've got to do so I can improve my life and do the things I wished I can someday. As for now, I will keep trying and see if there is room for me to work at all. My life is hectic though I only have two children to look after, but then, it is a job, you know. In life I can only do what I can and do the best I can, so I'll see what happens next. I hope good things will come my way.

It's early in the morning but I wanted to finish something I started so, I stayed up a bit. I usually wake up late anyway; mid day. I also got suckered for a survey that went on and one just because I can win some money...LOL. But I know I won't and I am wasting my time. I used to play a groupolotto before back in 1999 and you know I actually won a dollar...LOL. I was really surprised that someone sent me a one dollar check. I just kept it and never was able to cash it in. So, I am trying my luck again because I just never know what can happened that perhaps I will get lucky, you know. That is why sometimes I take chances, the not too risky ones but I do try when I think I have a chance.

I am not too busy, I am just bored and have been lazy about updating my blog often. It is really boring when you don't have a lot to share, then not having a page rank kills it most of all. So, oh, life is boring right now with me, and I guess our summer is not as great as I anticipated. Maybe I will get myself busy with going to the Macomb College and teach myself English-the ESL program available through the computer. That is what I can do for now since I don't really like to leave my baby girl at home for too long. Okay, this is all for now. We will be looking forward to the Olympic eh.

I am getting tired just sitting pretty at home and going nowhere, so I applied for a job. Hopefully, I will get a call and be working somewhere around here to be able to make extra money. I am planning to save money and get things done in my life. If I sit and wait nothing will ever happen to me. I could sit at home until my hair turns gray...LOL. So, I am beginning to make a move on and change my life. I don't like inactivity, and certainly hate not having extra money in my pocket for shopping. I want my life to be more exciting, make it more interesting because oh, I get awfully bored sometimes. If I am bored I usually don't like to eat; I would have no appetite at all. I think money keeps me sane...LOL, because then I can go shopping and accomplish my goals. Shopping pleases me; it is like a girl's therapy. Having my children keeps me going with being alive because mainly they are my reason for living. Now if only I have a little of everything I will be satisfied. I don't want live a boring life, I tell you. I want to bring in excitement to it by having a little money to spend every once in a while for my expenses and yes, so I can help my family here and back home. I am not retired yet, so I am not willing to sit around...LOL, moreover, I am not that type of person anyway. I always like to be out and doing something I enjoy other than being in front of the computer and blog all day. Stay up almost all night because I can't get off the computer. That is not the kind of life I envisioned and definitely not what I intend to live.